urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:wishresign cassie cassie 2008-07-11T19:56:55Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:wishresign:66663 2008-07-11T06:16:45Z 2008-07-11T19:56:55Z <img src="http://i28.tinypic.com/b9jeyb.png" div="div" align="left" width="300"><font face="courier new"><font size="5"><b>friends only & anonymous post.</b></font><br /><li>leave me anonymous comments- tell me a secret, tell me anything, tell me something.<br /><li>non-friends: leave a comment to be added.<br /><li><a href="http://myspace.com/jepha">myspace.</a><br /><li><a href="http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1142910519">facebook.</a><br /><br /><b>clementine:</b> joely? <br /><b>joel:</b> yeah, tangerine? <br /><b>clementine:</b> am i ugly? <br /><b>joel:</b> uh-uh. <br /><b>clementine:</b> when i was a kid, i thought i was. i can't believe i'm crying already. sometimes i think people don't understand how lonely it is to be a kid, like you don't matter. so, i'm eight, and i have these toys, these dolls. my favorite is this ugly girl doll who i call clementine, and i keep yelling at her, "you can't be ugly! be pretty!" it's weird, like if i can transform her, i would magically change, too. <br /><b>joel:</b> you're pretty. <br /><b>clementine:</b> joely, don't ever leave me. <br /><b>joel:</b> you're pretty... you're pretty... pretty...</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:wishresign:49449 2008-02-04T01:47:01Z 2008-07-11T06:24:52Z i am approaching 2 years since she has died<br />the last time i went there, the time when she was buried, the ground was still fresh<br />no tombstone<br />no nothing<br />just flowers and dirt<br />i fear if i go to her grave, then it will be real.<br />she will really be dead.<br />and i do not want to face that.<br />to me, my mom didnt die.<br />shes just gone until i see her again.